Should I get a night stocking job?
It is New Year’s Eve and I’m at home drinking alone. I’ve never had a girlfriend, and I don’t have any real friends. I graduated high school in the top of my class, but I have severe social anxiety that makes me very nervous around people. I have a rare skin condition that causes me to develop hives when I sweat. I have seen many doctors and been diagnosed with cholinergic urticaria. There is no cure, but Benadryls provide me a few hours relief. I used to pass my time playing online games. My family moved, and at my new house I do not have a good internet connection. Now I have nothing to do. I have insomnia. When I go to bed at 4 am, I do not fall asleep until 6 am, even after downing a couple Benadryls. I need something to do. I don’t care how much I get paid. I only spend money on gas, Benadryl and cigarettes. I’d like an apartment some day but I still live with my parents. I considered getting a cashier position, but I think the stress and physical trembling from talking to people all day would be too much for me. Am I making a mistake by applying for a night stocking job?
I don’t think you are making a mistake by applying this night job. That is a step in the right direction even though there’s no guarantee it will improve your life. I don’t know how old you are, but the younger you are the more time you have to recover and live the kind of life you want…. I would definitely apply for any job you can get. Make sure to stay with the job as long as you can. Seek therapy. Look for opportunities to get out and do things you are interested in.